The Book - The Secret

I finished reading this book and I really recommend this to everyone to read. As I was reading through 1/3rd into the book, I noticed everything I was reading was already what I have been doing. Being positive, think and imagine how I want my life to be, etc....I am where I am because of the positive thinking and wanting how my life should be. I've written about this "law of attraction" a few times already in my blog, and I am writing about this again to remind myself about it. I called my girl friend the other night to talk to her with everything going on at work, I just really wanted to talk to someone. I miss my family and friends lots, I'm not used to being alone without them. I'm not technically alone because I have my boyfriend, but having the comfort of friends and family is what I'm feeling "alone" from. When I called my girl friend she didn't have time to talk to me, but she just said "remember the secret...don't forget it!" hahaha...she's so silly. And she was right. I need to get back into my positive thinking about life and what I really want.

What I really want now...is I still would like to stay in the non-profit part of business. I really enjoyed my time at this job that I am at now. I really don't want to feel like I have to sell to make a difference at my work. I want to be happy at my next job, I want to be able to have a friendly boss, who will respond to me when i say "how are you?" Since I've been at this job, not counting my first day of work, this boss does not respond to "how are you?" I don't know how anyone can be like that at a job. After all, you are seeing the person almost 40 hours a week. She's like this grumpy old fart that just likes things her way. I guess that's why things have happened, the way it happened this past week. Anyway...I'll be on the job hunt again. Til then....have a good week!

Shocking week!

So many things happened since I last wrote in here. Last week, my department had a meeting and no one knew what was going on. What happened was the C.A.O of the company decided to tell all of us that they are going to change the description of each one of our job responsibilities and job titles and raise salaries. When we heard that, we didn't know what to say, but after she said all that, she also said, there needs to be a change in the department and they realize they need to hire more sales oriented professionals, that is why they came to this conclusion of....we are welcome to reapply for our own job if we want to keep it, or if we don't our last day of employment is in September. We were all shocked and so pissed. We're talking about a 9 person marketing department. This is the biggest marketing department I've ever worked in, enjoyed, made friends, and we are all working for the same purpose, which is to help the senior citizen's of San Francisco remain safe at home independently while getting the medical help they need. We all put our hearts into our jobs. Also, we are all certified from the Department of Health Services in Sacramento to be able to market this health plan. Upper management is willing to gamble the team they have now, to hire brand new people, train them, make sure they will pass the exam from D.H.S., and have them rebuild new relationships with the community partners. They have the time for that and "see" if this project of theirs will be successful?? I guess so. I've been hearing a lot of rumors, no matter what it is....true or not....I just want to be outside the loop of things.

The other thing is that my dumb boss "heard rumors" that I have a blog about her. Why the hell would I waste time in writing my blog about her? Plus if she didn't do anything to hurt people or offend people, why would anyone write about her?

Basically after that huge bomb of a meeting last week, she's getting a lot of rumors. I don't care what's going on, just I hate it. I'm really sad and upset. It took me about a week for everything to sink into my emotions and feelings. I started looking for jobs, but there isn't much out there but administrative jobs. I'm in the marketing, network, projects type work. So there isn't much marketing jobs at all. :( I just have to be persistent like every other time I've looked for a job. :) Wish me luck....