Friends and Family Matters

In June, I went back home to visit my family with my boyfriend. This is the first time since I moved out that I actually have a vacation that's more than just a weekend to be with my family. This time I was able to spend 5 days at home. Well, more like 4 full days. I used to live in beautiful, sunny, Huntington Beach, CA. Where the sun is always out no matter what season it was. I lived a little less than 2.5 miles from the beautiful beach. Seeing family was so wonderful. A lot has changed when I went home. I noticed my family being happier to see me when I am home, my parents are more relaxed and positive about life, it's just wonderful.

I've always been a family girl, and I don't think I'll ever let that part of me go. Many times I've been called "Mother or mom" from my friends because I care too much and sometimes I guess I do sound like a mother. I don't quite know if that's a good thing or not, but I only can lend a hand and heart out.

Also this trip made me realize how much I miss my friends. I wasn't able to see all of them because of different schedules and many things have changed and everyone's busy now. There was one really important friend I wasn't able to see and I was a little disappointed. I don't quite know how to express my feelings because I don't want to be all "sensitive" about things, but I do feel uncomfortable. This friend of mine, he's been the most wonderful, gentleman, biggest heart, person I've ever met. He's helped me with almost all obstacles in life after I met him. I truly treasure this friendship to my heart. I met 4 wonderful guy friends when I was in college, and he was one of them that became my best friend. Even though things are different now and because we are so busy with work, that still does not change in my heart. I also hope it doesn't change for him, but I can only speak for me and my feelings. He's opened up my mind with a lot of things, and he's very mature for his age with much knowledge. I see him as the older brother I've never had. Although I do have two older brothers, my best friend just have a different way of thinking and open mind thinking. My two older brothers are the best also, but they are a little traditional. Now that my brother's have their own kids, I think they just NOW started to think a little more with an open mind. :) Anyway...all in all, what I mean is this best friend of mine that I didn't get to see when I went home, I really miss talking to. I haven't told him, but if he reads this, he would know by now.

Now after my vacation back at home, I've been back for a month now. It made me miss my friends and family more. Just the other day, I felt lonely cause I don't have much friends here where I live. I'm constantly working and then doing errands on the weekends with my boyfriend, sometimes independent life isn't so good if your friends and family aren't around. When I lived at home, I felt lonely cause I didn't have someone to love me for me, and now that I have that, I don't have family and friends around. Silly me... :) Of course, we all can't have everything. I can't really complain about my life now because I am really happy, and after the this trip back home, I realized even more that there is a possibility my boyfriend wants to relocate to live in Orange County with me later. So probably another year or two (MAX.) we can move back home to southern California. My boyfriend is so much happier every time I have a trip back home. So I am extremely glad and happy about that.

Wish me luck with my job now, since things seem to be going a little bit better for me now... and I look forward to meeting new people as I am living independently now. :)