Economy is Tough

After working at my non-profit firm for about 8 months now, realizing it's a really stressful job and it's a "hard" job, unfortunately, I'm having to think about finding another job or not. :( I love what I do even though I don't have a lot of experience yet, I have the determination and persistence to perfect it as much as I can each and every day. But sometimes with a boss like mine, it's hard to have the determination and persistence for my job. My boss has a goal for each one of her employee's in our marketing department. It's her goal for us that she sets. And recently we've had to read a book called...SPIN Selling (you can take a look at the inside of this book online if you go to... http://www.amazon.com/gp/reader/0070511136/ref=sib_dp_pt#reader-link ). I'm not quite sure if the book is for our industry, but after reading half way through it, it's really difficult to put a "selling" perspective into a non-profit organization. I had wish we didn't spend our time to read this book. Or if we spent time on reading a book, at lease spend time reading a marketing/sales job for non-profit organizations. Anyway, I don't know what to do with gas prices going up the past month, and the economy not doing so well, our company is having low numbers also. I think I'm looking into jobs just to save myself from anything bad happening.

Two weeks ago I took a 5 day vacation back home to see my family and it felt so great seeing them. I tried seeing my friends as well. I was unable to see all of them, but I did get a chance to see most of them and I am thankful for that. I also was able to put together a family BBQ and everyone actually showed up. That was wonderful too. Seeing how happy my parents are when I go home makes me feel wonderful. But this time going home, I felt a little bit of pressure because my mom kept bringing up the subject of "marriage." Then I got asked to "remember to save up for a wedding." I don't quite know if I'm ready for marriage just yet, but I know that once that happens, I want to be living back home near my parents house. It makes my boyfriend very happy every time we make trips back home and I like that. A lot of the times I feel like Southern California makes him a lot happier than Northern California. I haven't had a chance to quite confirm if that's true or not with him, but I feel very strongly that it's true. I hope it's true. :) Also, the reason why I'm saying that I'm not quite sure if I'm ready for marriage is because I'm not sure if my boyfriend wants to or not. I think it's in his mind, but just not now. My wish and my "want" is for him to propose at the end of this year (2008) and then we would get married by the end of 2009. :) At lease thats the plan that I would like. We'll see what happens. :)